If you’ve only known me in person the last few years, you’d probably have no idea that I love hockey. I don’t watch it much anymore, I don’t collect cards, hell, I don’t even wear my (high school) signature hockey jerseys anymore!
But if there is one thing I miss, its playing the game.
I was introduced to hockey by my mom’s second husband Bill, when he started taking us to East Coast Hockey League games in Erie, PA. The Panthers became an obsession to me; I carried books around at school that detailed the standings and scores from all the NHL seasons, and my mom custom made a Panthers jersey with my name on it.
During my teen years I was also playing hockey. We couldn’t afford to have me play ice hockey, so I picked up on the roller hockey craze that was sweeping the US in the early to mid nineties, and I ground through pairs after pairs of skates and plastic sticks and PVC hockey goals and lost countless numbers of hockey balls.
The first time I played roller hockey was in the back driveway of an apartment we were living in in Erie. This neighbor named Brad had a Fisher Price soccer goal that he used to shoot a puck at, and I was given a stick and told to play goalie the first time we played the game together. We had a few kids from the neighborhood join us, but it was nothing like the eventual crowds of kids I found at the trailer park that I lived in from 1991-1995.
Those four years I played goalie behind droves of boys and girls running or skating around the end of the road. Windows broken, car tail lights busted, trailer skirts busted up…yes, those were the days. I had leg pads made out of car seat foam wrapped in duct tape. Every few weeks I would draw the stitch lines from the various stylish goalie pads of the day. I used a baseball glove as a catcher and another thin piece of car seat foam wrapped in duct tape for a blocker pad.
As the years went by, I met a group of kids in Edinboro who would eventually become the friends group I had into my adulthood. We played at a tennis court behind a pizza place. I bought better equipment, but was becoming more focused on the goalie position. I loved being the last defense. Became known for it really.
After we graduated high school, I heard about a weekly pick up league at a skate rink, nearby to my dad’s house. Sure enough, there was some REAL talent there. My friends group went, but most of them were just dabblers in the game. I loved it and took it very very seriously. After only a couple weeks, I was the only one who was left from my friends group who hadn’t stopped playing.
I took lessons from some of the best players our area had to offer, even one who had played in a professional ESPN-televised roller hockey league in the mid-90′s peak. And I got better. I got stronger, faster, quicker, and smarter. I gave some thought of moving away to play the game professionally…but it was just pipe dreams.
In fact, I was getting older. The group of guys that had been playing when I started in 2001 had stopped frequenting the skating rink. The players were getting younger, and all of a sudden, seven years later, I was the second to oldest player there. Very depressing. So I stopped frequenting. I had a few other things in life that became more important, and I eventually stopped going altogether.
Over the last few years I have started to pay less and less attention to the game; I’ve not been attending the Otters games (the team that replaced the Panthers in Erie) and I am finding that I wasn’t even super excited about the Penguins winning the Stanley Cup last year. The last time they won I was jumping around the house!
Am I just getting too old for it? I don’t know. I know I miss it. I got a PlayStation 3 for Christmas and also a copy of NHL08, which I find to be very interesting but it still isn’t catching my attention as much as I’d like. There are lots of other things going on in life, but it worries me that the large chunk of my adolescence is falling away with the departure of hockey from my worldview.
What do you think? Chalk it up to age? Or I am just not putting things in perspective?